Diary of a Marked Woman

Diary of a Marked Woman

Paris, October 2005

Sat. the 1st. I went to Monoprix on Av. d'Italie for my weekly food shopping. As it was soon after I uploaded my September rants about this store, there was no trouble at all that day: no sadistic gay customer ahead of me at the deli counter saying "Well, that's all... And now I need some cheese" and walking to the other side with the sales clerk. No, today the clerk was normally friendly, and he didn't call me "Monsieur" like he did once. Even though it's plain to see I'm a woman, not wearing any bra under my ample T-shirts, I wear a baseball cap so I guess it confused the poor dear! All right, none of that nonsense today. No trouble either at the cash register...

But when I tried to get my deposit coin for the shopping cart with the key dangling from the next-in-line shopping cart, the key didn't fit. I tried for half a minute until a security guy told me brusquely, as if I were a retard "don't you see that it's the wrong shopping cart?" and indeed, the lock-and-key mechanism on that one was different to all the others. The cart with the key I was trying didn't belong in this store! "But what is it doing here, then?" I asked. No answer. He pushed aside the alien shopping cart then he unlocked the one euro coin for me with another cart's key and handed it to me. "I would have been surprised too if there had been no monkey business this time," I said.

Sat. the 8th: I'm behind two customers at the "deliveries only" checkout at Monoprix. The usual Algerian-looking cashier isn't there this time and in her place I recognize the Asian-looking cashier as one who, one or two years ago, used to plunge her face in the price list and remain inactive for what seemed like an eternity every time I came up with my purchases. I can understand a cashier needing to ckeck the cheat sheet once in a while, but then the normal thing to do if it was going to take more than a few seconds, would be to apologize to the customer for keeping her waiting. But this one never did so in the end I got pissed off so much I talked to the lady at customer service who took the girl's side, saying it was normal to forget the code of fruit and vegetables once in a while. But I said that it was very impolite to keep the customer waiting without saying anything. So I'm on guard with that one and wouldn't you know it, instead of giving the customer his change she is fidgeting with a small accordion leaflet which she turns over and over endlessly, then she leaves the cash register precipitously while the line of Saturday afternoon shoppers extends into the aisles, and she talks feverishly to the customer-service woman I had a talking-to with, a fiftyish stout woman, and then she returns to the cash register and finishes the transaction. Next in line is a woman with a teen-age girl. Suddenly the girl turns around and rams into me then apologizes. "Oh, sorry! I didn't know you were behind me!" I gave her an icy stare. The darling thought there was nobody behind her on a Saturday afternoon at the supermarket! Then she crawled between the bars of the fence that separates the customer lines and returned the same way two minutes later with a few bananas.

The Asian-looking cashier again handled the accordion-folded leaflet when the woman wanted to pay, and this lasted for another half minute, of turning the leaflet one side then the other in an apparent panic, and when all my purchases had gone through and it was my turn to pay she did it again. This time I could read the title of the leaflet: it was "LIVRAISONS" which means "deliveries". Imagine! She wanted me to believe that she was new on the job at the delivery cash register, to explain the long wait she was imposing on all the customers. As if you needed a special training to hand out a delivery form for the customer to write in her address. My foot! This was another ploy to keep me waiting! Anyway, supposing the girl was a beginner for real, it's not a good idea to start a trainee on a new job on a Saturday afternoon. But she was a "beginner" only for the delivery part, so gimme a break. No way it explained all this delaying maneuvres.

I suggest you people at Monoprix get yourself a job at Abu Ghrayb or another US run prison in Iraq or Afghanistan to replace all these GIs who quit in disgust at the torture that's going on there. Since you enjoy so much keeping on her feet a woman you know has a leg injury, I'm sure that you'd be very successful there, you woudn't get PTSD like those sissies and you'd get promoted much faster than at Monoprix.


I am satisfied with the two Hawaiian appliqué pieces I have done so far: the first one is a small one (15 in. square) with an improvised motif that I made just to go through the entire process and know the pitfalls. The batting is hundred percent cotton woven "molleton". I had a hard time with the mitered corners because I found nowhere an explanation on how to do them so they're not perfect. The colors are a bright orange motif on a military-green background. It looks smashing in the entrance of my apartment with its orange floor covering... and it draws the eye away from the peeling paint on the wall, due to water infiltration from my upstairs neighbor's apartment!

The second one is a full-size 20 in. square with a motif from a Dover book by Elizabeth Root, and the floral motif is the color of a red wine stain on a vanilla background. More about Hawaiian appliqué ...

I am also satisfied with the few pieces of filet crochet I have done since I recently purchased a fresh supply of white cotton yarn. But first I finished the large doily I had started when I ran out of yarn just past the half-way mark, and I finished the job in one week of rather intensive work. To my great satisfaction I noticed that I acquired the quick wrist movement which is the harbinger of the seasoned practitioner, and allows one to work much, much faster. Therefore one is no longer laboring one stitch at a time, but gaining in freedom and efficiency. So the piece, a four-lobe filet doily with graceful arabesques, was no sooner finished than I was raring to go for another one with my new dexterity.

And so I leafed through my crochet literature -now contained in a three-flap folder- and found some interesting small sample pieces, so I made some of them which I really like, and I also keep thinking about how to make bags with these and about some experiments I'd like to try.

With the one thousand euro my mother gave me in July I subscribed to a rare magazine of textile arts and rugs, I bought several books on specific techniques of textile art, and bought more sewing supplies for my future projects in Sashiko and Boutis. It was not so easy to find suppliers but little by little I gathered literature and addresses and attended a trade show where I got a lot of information. I really deplored the loss of my New York suppliers when I resumed my activity in Paris in the fall of 2002. I had to do it all over again when in NYC I knew exactly where to find this or that fabric, and I enjoyed so much exploring the resources of the Garment District! Whereas in Paris, the garment district is called the "Sentier" and has very little of quality to offer to the private customer. With outsourcing and the sale of the house of St Laurent, the beautiful quality woolens that were left over after a collection are no longer available. And while I'm speaking about fashion, it was a tremendous disappointment when I returned, to find out that the classy French woman of yore was extinct, and the designer clothes were not even better made than the cheap Tati clothes. Really! You can't tell the difference between Armani and Tati when you look at the finishing on the inside.

I have found a supplier -they actually grow the flax and weave it -the entire cycle takes 24 months-, it's an age-old particular activity in Normandy- of linen fabric that I'll need to do Blackwork or other embroidery so I won't have to buy the special embroidery fabric that is outrageously expensive and only so-so looking, and I have an alternative to the burlap I've been using for Blackwork lately (very cheap at 8 euro per meter in 260cm width!). All these little swatches of linen fabric with names like gaze, batiste, linon, émiane, toile, siga, métis, from ethereal gauze to earthy unbleached "baker's linen" stimulate my imagination. And I'm still expecting a few Dover Needlework books, so I'm almost all set to start a new wave of creative needlework. Just in time, it seems, for my birthday next month.

If my memory serves, I started the crochet in the spring of last year and the Blackwork in October, a year ago. In between I fell in love with Sashiko embroidery and cut some stencils or traced with a compass (I really enjoyed plotting of the design) and embroidered some pieces, but not with the authentic Japanese off-white cotton thread and indigo cotton fabric. It was only around Christmas 2004 that I found the real McCoy. But at 33 euro a meter in 90cm width the fabric at the Japanese store rue François Miron was way too expensive, and the lady who sold me the thread at Le Rouvray was so unpleasant that I never again wanted to buy from her, so I did what I could with just one meter and loved the result. And then I had to wait until I found other suppliers. Which is now done.

We'll be right back... after these messages:




Fri. the 14th Every time I read about the Americans trying to teach the Iraqis how to fight I get upset. Who the hell do they think they are? As if there was no Iraqi army before the Yanks invaded! And the way it's going, it looks like the Iraqi would-be soldiers are real numbskulls, all thumbs when it comes to pulling the trigger. But it CAN'T BE because they're stupid! Proof is that as soon as they've learnt how to use the US hardware they desert... probably to join the Résistance. But the Yanks, in their arrogance, refuse to aknowledge that they are being conned and keep trying and trying, real hard, and very patiently,to teach those "hajjis" how to handle a damn M-16 machine gun to kill their brothers. So that last August the brass was talking about three batallions of Iraqis ready to fight, and now in mid-October one hears about only one batallion of Iraqis ready to fight. What happened to the other two? Hey, they joined the Résistance with their US-made guns, you stoopid! But the brass what's his-name, Abizaid or Casey doesn't even voice the possibility of it happening, as if he's too dense to connect the dots or too arrogant to admit that he's been had. Ha ha!

Every time I read that the Iraqi cannot fight without the Yanks holding their hands I gnash my teeth because I'm not absolutely sure that what I think is happening is actually correct. But what the Yanks mean by "fighting ability" is in a conventional war context, where the US hardware is sure to destroy the enemy. I'll have to read more of what the war theoreticians have written about "asymmetrical warfare". That's their neo-con lingo for guerilla. Where the little guy wins without the big guns but with ambushes and booby-traps. Excuse me, IED's. I can hear the GI say "That ain't fair!"

Apparently the same thing is happening in Afghanistan. As soon as the Afghanis have learnt all they can from the "let-me-show-you-democracy" good-hearted condescending US military, they "melt into the rugged landscape" and use their new skills against their benefactors, the bastards! Imagine! Biting the hand that bleeds you!!!

Sat. the 15th: Sigh of relief: I've found confirmation of my logical intuition but of course not in the Western press. Once more Asia Times is the best source for cool-headed assessment of the political situation in the Middle East and Asia: Western-trained, Western-armed, enemies By Ramtanu Maitra A must-read.

You go Mujahideen! shoot them blackhawks and chinooks out of the sky! Vive la Résistance! Without any college degree I knew from the start, when the invasion became a certainty, that it was doomed, because I knew that the US had no intelligence on the ground capable of infiltrating the Iraqis. They think everybody should speak English so nobody bothers to learn foreign languages. And when they wear Arab disguise, they get caught! From Uruknet Resistance Report of Oct. 12:

A number of Iraqis apprehended two Americans disguised in Arab dress as they tried to blow up a booby-trapped car in the middle of a residential area in western Baghdad on Tuesday.

Residents of western Baghdad's al-Ghazaliyah district told Quds Press that the people had apprehended the Americans as they left their Caprice car near a residential neighborhood in al-Ghazaliyah on Tuesday afternoon (11 October 2005). Local people found they looked suspicious [my emphasis] so they detained the men before they could get away. That was when they discovered that they were Americans and called the Iraqi puppet police..

Five minutes after the arrival of the Iraqi puppet olice on the scene a large force of US troops showed up and surrounded the area. They put the two Americans in one of their Humvees and drove away at high speed to the astonishment of the residents of the area.

Quds Press spoke by telephone with a member of the al-Ghazaliyah puppet police who confirmed the incident, saying that the two men were non-Arab foreigners but declined to be more precise about their nationality.

Quds Press pointed out that about a month ago, the Iraqi puppet police in the southern Iraqi city of al-Basrah arrested two Britons whom they accused of attempting to cause an explosion in the city. The Britons were taken into custody by the Iraqi puppet police only to be broken out of prison by an assault of British occupation troops. That incident has created a tense relationship between the British and the local puppet authorities ial-Basrah, Quds Press noted.

These failed false-flag ops remind me of a pillar of the community in NYC, a chief judge named Sol Wachtler who for a time in the 1980's or 90's sent his socialite Jewish girlfriend anonymous threatening letters, and condoms to her daughter, so that the woman, who was losing interest in him, would call him to the rescue and postpone or abandon the break-up. He was found out and pleaded insanity. So the Yanks should do the same. Not responsible, your honor (at the coming War Crimes trial at the Hague).

From same Oct. 12 Uruknet report:

Sources in the area report that the mass sectarian arrests carried out on Wednesday evening were in fact the fourth such sweep in the area. The Iraqi puppet army and Badr Brigades have been making mass sectarian arrests in raids on Sunni houses in the south and central part of the city of al-Basrah and various other nearby areas since the month of Ramadan began on 5 October.

Mafkarat al-Islam reported that arrested Sunnis are frequently tortured by Badr Brigade followers of pro-American Shi`i religious authority Ayatallah `Ali s-Sistani, and most are said to wind up dead.

The Yanks are using the same technique as in the US: they arrest the voters who will likely vote against their interests. That's why prison population is mostly Black in the US. Now they arrest vast numbers of Sunnis before the referendum on the new Iraq constitution to prevent them from voting against it,so that it will pass and the US can say "You see, we brought them democracy!"

I'm trying to imagine how I would feel about voting a constitutional referendum if I was living in the same circumstances as the Iraqis do, with no utilities, not even water, nor sewage evacuation, nor functional hospitals, nor enough decent food, nor petroleum products for transportation and electricity and air conditioning, in constant danger of being blown to pieces or maimed or kidnapped or arrested and sent to a gulag to be tortured, of having the occupier break down the door in the middle of the night, or having a family member in detention and being eaten alive with worry about his/her fate, and under these circumstances, totally traumatized, to be asked to study, to parse the fine points of a momentous document that will seal the fate of the country for the foreseeable future. I'm saying, the Iraqi cannot think straight under these circumstances and it is totally unfair to require them to vote now. First bring the circumstances under which they could heal and live a normal life, and only then ask them to make a decision about their political future. Pepe Escobar from Asia Times agrees with me And what about all the people in detention? Are they going to vote too? Of course not! All the insurgents and suspected insurgents are treated as non-persons and are denied the right to vote, which is all right for the Yanks since these detainees would have voted against the charter anyway. Disgusto.

US practice of starving Iraqi civilians is inhumane according to UN Oh, really?

It seems to me the constitutional referendum is not really intended for the welfare of the Iraqis but, considering the haste that it was written under, with the US admin constantly prodding the framers with the October 15 deadline, and the oily US ambassador Khalilzad making "suggestions", that it is rather a trophy that the US admin can exhibit triumphantly as a proof that it "brought democracy" to Iraq. Let's not forget that the Hammurabi Code was the first body of laws ever written some 5,000 years BC, so isn't it ironic that Bush is showing the Iraqis how to do it? It's a little like bringing coal to Newcastle. The reason Bush is so self-confident about his great democratizing mission is because he is so ignorant of History, so he doesn't know to whom he is trying to show what democracy is.

I've long suspected that in the NWO people's mouth, that word "democracy" is code for reckless capitalism and what Bush really wants to do, besides sucking the Iraqi oil wells dry, is to open the Iraqi market for US corporations. Poor Iraqis who don't know what a cheeseburger is, and French fries! And all the consumer junk that has made the US population fat, stupid and mean! President Bush wants the Iraqis to have the freedom to watch the same brain-dissolving entertainment, ditch the dishdasha for Levi's blue jeans and eat the same poisons as his compatriots. He can't imagine happiness without an Amex card. So his Big Business friends can make another kind of killing in the cradle of civilization, when the army is done, that is, with whatever people remains.

Song and dance on the Terror Trail To begin with, the US didn't follow its own advice about closing the door after the horse has escaped because it invaded Afghanistan before sealing the borders, and after the invasion was surprised that Bin Laden had crossed to Pakistan.

From Fri. the 14th Iraqi Resistance Report:

US forces deploy around all Sunni mosques in Baghdad prior to Friday prayers to prevent sermons denouncing US backed “Constitution.” In an effort to prevent any public expression of dissent over the “Constitution” that the United States is seeking to impose on occupied Iraq through a referendum slated for Saturday, US forces surrounded every Sunni mosque in Baghdad on Friday at the time of the weekly congregational prayer services at midday. The Mafakrat al-Islam correspondent in Baghdad reported that between 10 and 15 US soldiers had taken up positions around every Sunni mosque. They did nothing to prevent worshippers from entering the buildings, but were ready to storm in and arrest the Imam in the event he said anything in his sermon of which they disapproved. The Iraqi Resistance has denounced the American-sponsored “Constitution” as a blue-print for the partition of the country along sectarian and ethnic lines. The Sunni community, as represented by the Association of Muslim Scholars, has taken the position that all participation in the political system, including voting in referenda pushed by the US, must be avoided so long as the occupation remains in the country. An official security source in the Iraqi puppet regime, who asked not to be identified, told Mafkarat al-Islam that the measures were in response to reports that the Resistance was planning to use mosques as bases from which to launch attacks. Claims that mosques are used as refuges by the Resistance are regularly made by the US occupation, but have not been substantiated and are denied by the Resistance.

Now, that's Freedom of Speech the new US way! What about teaching by example? Is this what they call "Democracy"? Threatening military action against a preacher if his message doesn't agree with the occupier's agenda?


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